48th letter to Oliver

Dear Oliver,

I am so selfish to ask you to stay the same without even considering what you feel, I am sorry 😔🥺🙏

I am sorry for all the hurt I cause you, it is not my intention to hurt you. It’s painful for me too, I don’t want this to happen but this is the best thing to do for now 😣😔

Please take all the time and space you need to calm your heart and mind. Take all the time you need to heal even if it takes days, weeks, months, or even a year — and when you are finally ready, I hope you can still welcome me as a friend and a big sis. I will do the same and I will always be here quietly supporting you.

Thank you for everything, for the memories and all the time we shared, I was genuinely happy to spend all those times with you.

Thank you for making me feel that I can be special too, thank you for always being so kind and patient to me, thank you for joining me in all the maps, for carrying me in every mountain (because of you I was able to see all those beautiful sceneries), thank you for bringing me to new maps and for making me feel that I am not alone, thank you for making me feel safe. Thank you for all our matching outfits and for allowing me to match outfit with you. Thank you for all the things that you do.

Always take care of yourself, Oliver 🙏

I wav wuv you and again I am very sorry 😔🙏

Sometimes I will send you this smiley “:)” in line app to show you that I remember you even if we don’t always play, I will send some random things as well, you can message me any random things too. Please know that I will be glad to receive random messages from you :)

I look forward to playing with you again when you are ready 🙏☺️

I pray that we slowly heal ourselves. I hope we will see each other until then 🙏🙏